The eye of the beholder

You know how that Stones song goes..."You can't always get what you want"...it's so strange to once again be reminded that no one is really happy with what they have. We all think something about ourselves needs improvement and often we covet what someone else has while that person doesn't even appreciate what it is we are coveting.

Wednesday at work one of the students commented that I always have such nice shoes and nails. Now the shoe thing is totally true - my shoes rock but my nails looked horrid - I was long overdue for a fill. It's just hard to take a compliment and I do the same thing every stupid girl does - try to deny that the compliment cannot be true.

After class on Wednesday, I went out for margaritas with two girls in the MBA program. It was a long tough semester and we turned in our strategic analysis paper and needed a drink to celebrate. One of the girls is always so polished and put together - very sophisticated and has lead a really cool life: living internationally, developing her own business - you know, things to envy! And then she says to me "You have such nice hair - where do you get it done?" UM, is she looking at my hair? Does she not see what I see in the mirror?! And then to top it off, while we are drinking, I tell her my Jamey story and she says "You have lead a very interesting life". This from a girl that lived in Rome! And she wasn't being condescending!!

I guess sometimes you just might find you get what you need...and the key to happiness is wanting what you need.

A horrid thing to call a person

One of my RAs has a "What political persuasion are you?" test on his MySpace and I thought it would be fun to take it.

You Are a Capitalist Republican

Money makes your world go round - and it's no surprise that you always vote your wallet. You're financially successful (or plan to be), and your agenda is low tax and pro business. You don't get fired up about abortion... but mention capital gains tax, and you go crazy. You want government to be as small as possible - and to stay out of the way of business.

What political persuasion are you?

What a horrible thing to say about a person!! I am NOT a Republican!!!

What I am listening to

Wow, if you haven't heard the James Blunt or Carrie Underwood CDs yet...you are missing out! This month I have really found a lot of good CDs - Chris Cagle's "Anywhere but Here" as well as Tim McGraw's Greatest Hits II. It's hard to be saving to move when there is such a plethora of good tunage out there!

Please don't let it be true!

Today at work, one of the administrative assistants asked why I don't apply for a mid-management position that is set to open up in May. I tried to explain that Indiana just wasn't the place for me. There are things I miss that I can't live much longer without - mountains, an active city life, and a dating pool. I tried to tell her that Evansville doesn't really have a good pool for someone my age and she said that she was sure it was the same everywhere. Oh please do not let that be true!

Thanks.

Um, yeah, well the last post wasn't meant as a poor pitiful me post. It was just an update. But thanks to my cheerleaders - Amanda and Chelle - what would I do without you in my corner!

Job search update

Three years ago, I wasn't stressed during my job search. I was graduating from college and did not officially have a job yet but I was rather confident that even if no one else wanted me, I would get an offer from CSUN. Things played out and I got an offer from USI first. While there have been several moments where I have seriously questioned why I would come here, overall the experience has been good. I have had a chance to be involved in some amazing career opportunities that look good on my resume. I got to live in the snow (mild as it was) and I got to experience Fall (even though it only lasts about two weeks out here). I have made a couple great friends and got to work on my MBA (and only had to pay for books!). Overall - not too bad!

This time is completely different. I am stressed and depressed - ready to cry if I think past August. I have until August 1st to find a job or I am HOMELESS and unemployed! (I turned in my letter of resignation so USI could hire a quality candidate to replace me - it is typical to do this in my field) I am a planner and not being able to plan my life 4 months in advance is killing me! I don't have a safety net like last time. Maybe I am too picky or maybe my head is too big because I think I am a very qualified candidate and should have offers flowing in...but they are not. I have had one on-campus interview so far (I feel it went well and I loved the area that the school in located!) and I have another one scheduled for the middle of May.

I did pull my candidacy from one school that I didn't feel I would enjoy working at (I keep second guessing if that was a smart thing to do). A few schools sent me an email letting me know that I am on their second tier of candidates. I know myself too well and if they ever offered me a interview I would always feel that I wasn't good enough for them and they were "settling" for me so I pulled myself from their search. Please don't let these decisions come back and bite me in the boo-tay!

I did get some good news today though - a position that I applied for that is not in Residence Life called me to move forward with the interview process. Woo HOO I am excited but I don't really like Cuban food ;)!

I know it will all work out like it is supposed to but "worse case scenario Tracy" (as my boss likes to call my pessimistic side) is planning to move in with my mom back in 29! Hopefully they will hire me back at Pizza Hut! (Oh gosh - the nightmare gets scarier!!!)